I haven’t made a secret in this blog of suffering from depression. Sometimes, I think I do a better job of writing about it than I do talking about it. The sadness can be overwhelming, as it is for me today, and many times, there is no reason for it. But, that’s what depression is, an illness that people suffer from, not something that people have because they haven’t prayed hard enough.
That’s the reason I’m self-conscious about speaking of my depression and even more self-conscious of asking for help or telling people I’m having a bad day. They think this is something I can pray away, and everything will be okay. It doesn’t work that way. I can’t sidestep it. I have to walk through it. There is a good thing about walking through it though because when I walk through it, God walks with me.
The writers of Scripture talk about this, especially in the psalms. Psalm 23:4 says, “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”
Another one comes from Psalm 119. Verse 28 says,”My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.”
Other parts of Scripture represent my feelings today too. Lamentations 3:55 says, “I called on your name, Lord, from the depths of the pit.”
An additional example comes from Micah 7:8. “Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light.”
I like this example and the example from Isaiah I’m going to quote in just a moment because they represent how I deal with my depression. I have to take one step in front of the other as I walk through it with God by my side. Sometimes, I can’t see the next step because it is so shrouded in darkness. I hurt and don’t understand why I am hurting. But, God is with me, and that is enough so I keep walking.
Isaiah 50:10 says, “Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on their God.” I do trust in and rely on my God as well so I keep putting one step in front of the other.
So, in conclusion, I covet your prayers today as I walk through this darkness and pray that we will all have the courage to put one step in front of the other with God by our side.
God’s blessings on all of you today!