I have thoughts rushing around in my head today. From what I read in 100 Days to Brave, from what I heard on Sunday from my pastor, from what I read this morning from a blogger friend–my thoughts are trying to coalesce into something important. God sometimes does this when He really wants me to get a point. He puts it where I can read or hear it more than once so I will pay attention. I’m sure I’m not the only one this has happened to. 🙂
At first, I wasn’t sure what to focus on from this morning’s entry. I’ve already spoken of my calling for the next phase of my life. I’ve spoken of how I think God wants to use my written words to bless others and that all I need to do is be faithful in writing them down. Then, I read a quote that brought the other things I had read and heard into focus. “We know, as Christians, that we are called to point people to Christ. But how are you supposed to do that practically, using your unique makeup?” (100 Days to Brave, Annie F. Downs) Ding, ding, ding! That was it! Time to bring my unique personality into this series of posts.
On Sunday, I heard a sermon from Matthew 5:13-16. God used my pastor to speak to me. Here is the text in case you don’t have it handy. “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot. You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.”
There it is, in black and white. We’re supposed to let our light shine before others. How is that supposed to work for those of us who are introverts? Yes, I have taught school, like I said yesterday. Yes, I am a mom and a wife. Yes, I have friends, and yes, I deal with people in public on a relatively daily basis. But sometimes, people just wear me out. Sometimes, I come home from being around people and relive every clumsy encounter. I relive the dumb and stupid things I’ve said and done. I wonder why people even have me as their friend because I don’t feel like I’ve done a good job interacting with them. So, how am I supposed to let my light shine when I feel like this?
Many of you would say I need to push myself through the feelings. I’ve done that as well working in Vacation Bible School for a whole week or going to a women’s retreat for the weekend. I know participating in these kind of things is good, and I’ve generally had good experiences while doing so. People who are extroverts would then ask why I wasn’t doing something a particular year when I express hesitation about doing it again. They would say I should just push through my feelings again since it worked well the last time.
They don’t know what goes on in my head though every time I am confronted with one of these invitations–the feelings of fatigue and inadequacy when I contemplate being around a group of people for an extended period of time. I’m actually facing a decision like that for this evening. The women of my church have started a monthly get-together at a local restaurant for fellowship–no praying or Bible study–just talking so people can get to know each other better. Part of me says it won’t matter if I come or not–that I wouldn’t be missed, and that’s the part that’s winning right now. Thinking about being around a group of people makes me feel overwhelmed and inadequate. I will see what happens with my decision by the end of the day.
Back to my question. How is someone who is quiet supposed to share their light for Christ? The blog I read earlier, https://upliftgirl.com/2018/03/20/this-little-light/, and the quote I shared from 100 Days to Brave have started to answer that question for me. God made me in His own unique way. There’s not a part of me He doesn’t know. He knows that I get overwhelmed and feel inadequate around groups of people. He knows that I get fatigued after a short while of being in a crowd. But, there are ways I can share my light while working within my personality. It isn’t just one way or nothing. One of them is writing in this blog. And yes, it does count. 🙂 Another is sharing my light with just one person. That one counts too. 🙂 It takes pressure off of this quiet soul when I think of it that way. So, I don’t need to speak to or be in a crowd to let my light shine. I can share God’s love with the world and use my own unique personality to do it.
As I end this post, I want to share two quotes that fit what I’m feeling about sharing my little light of God’s love. The first is from a secular television show, but I think it still fits. “The steps you take don’t need to be big. They just need to take you in the right direction.” (The Devil Complex, Marvel’s Agents of SHIELD) Pretty profound, right? Just take one step at a time. The other one is from the blog I mentioned earlier. “One little expression of love after another; one little act of telling the good news.” (This Little Light of Mine, upliftgirl.com) One step at a time. This post really spoke to me. It’s what God wants me to do, and that’s okay. And now, my prayer for all of us is that we go in the direction God is calling us to–one step at a time!
Praying God’s blessings on you all today!